Focus

Yes Kari, I read your blog.
So, now you can be happy there is an update.

Let me speak for a few minutes on the idea of focus
in ones life. As stress and the forces of everyday life
begin to push inward we, as an almost survival
mechanism begin to focus inward. We start to allow
those things at the periphery of our lives float away
as we become more and more focused on the here
and now.

That is where I am, here and now.

As most of you know I do work occasionally for law
enforcement. Because of this believe it or not some
of my work is what you may call secret if not
clandestine at times. Sometimes this is so true
I cannot even talk to Judi about what is going on nor
what I may have seen in the course of my work. This
can be to protect the innocent or to make sure that
no information is leaked before some bad person
goes to trial. There are days I assure you that I wish
I could not only wash my eyeballs but also unsee what
I may have seen. Some of the things burn themselves
into your memory forever. Little things sometimes
trigger these memories from times gone by and you
may not even remember the context in which you had
originally seen them, just the image you saw. When
there is no place to vent such things from your mind
they, and the pressures the create, build up. This is
where your focus begins to narrow. Compound it with
the constant movement of life in general you have a
potentially explosive mixture.

When your focus begins to draw inward things like a
blog begin to suffer. Creativity begins to die a slow
death on the vine .To someone who writes, this adds
to the stress although it is self induced for letting this
writing go astray. It begins a vicious downward spiral
of a lack of writing creating stress and the stress
impairing the ability to write that then creates more
stress. Sometimes though a simple thing will cause
you to break that cycle even if just for a little while to
jot down a few thoughts.

So yes, thank you Kari for the nudge.

Till next time,
Be mindful and awake